Hello old friends, I have not shared this space with you in far to long but baby, I've missed ya.
After finally remembering my blog name and password, I know I know, I was reading some old posts and realized, I have to tell you the rest of the story.......
After my 33 days of consecrating in September 2013 my husband and I renewed our vowels on our anniversary and then, one month to the day we conceived our beloved Amelia. I was at our weekly prayer group, kneeling down during the last decade of the rosary, I heard a soft , gentle voice say to me, it is time. I immediately knew it was Our Lady and she meant its baby time.... So then I waited, we prayed a lot and we waited, then on the feast of the holy family at 5 am the test said positive. Fast forward to many months of sickness , trips to the ER for IV bags and then in September of 2014 she arrived, two weeks late but who cares right, she was here and let me say, oh so perfect...
Now let's fast forward once again. We had Amelia, we moved to another new house, we felt really good. If God wanted to give more kids we were open but listen we didn't think we would get this one so we weren't about to start making demands... Then one sunny day last March I was reading while Amelia napped, suddenly the page in front of me disappeared, all I could see was a beautiful, chubby, dark haired baby boy and more intensely I could smell him. I knew this was my son, I then heard a strong male voice say, this is my son Samuel whom I am giving to you. Just like that it was over, he was gone and I wept. I cried so hard I could not breath. I knew that baby, he was mine and I wanted him here, now..... Again I waited and prayed , on the feast of Saint Joseph two weeks later, the test said positive ...once again the sickness came, IV therapy at home , months of feeling horrible, replying on friends and family to care for Amelia and myself. I begged God to help me, of course being the good God and Divine Physician He sent me a wonderful woman who for the next several months would see me once a week for acupressure and massage therapy. Then on December 1st, again two weeks late, we welcomed Samuel William into the world and perfection grew.
Some thoughts...
I fully understand that some of you may be saying,, Shannon did that really happen to you, are you just hearing things or hearing the things you want to hear? My true and honest response is, yes, those things happened, I know it to be true and look I have the kids to prove it! You my friends do not have to believe me, you can take it up with the Big Man yourself, but I know in my heart heaven spoke to me about these babies... Now will I get a Divine pregnancy test every time we are expecting, I honestly don't know. I can hope because selfishly it is kind of amazing but maybe God won't plan that going forward.
I feel the urge to write this ,to share ,not because I want to brag or throw around cool interactions with Our Creator but because I pray that if you are reading this and you are struggling to give up control and fully trust God, that this story of our life can help you let go. Let go of the power struggle bc God isn't going to compete with you. He loves you and has given you free will to keep pushing your wants, you won't be happy and neither will He but He won't stop you. I am unable to fully express the peace we have felt surrendering to His will and the graces and blessings He has given us , well they are more than I could have ever dreamed. I beg you, offer Him your pain, your love, your desires, make a consecration to Our Lady and give up the fight, fall back and let the Divine wave carry you away.
After finally remembering my blog name and password, I know I know, I was reading some old posts and realized, I have to tell you the rest of the story.......
After my 33 days of consecrating in September 2013 my husband and I renewed our vowels on our anniversary and then, one month to the day we conceived our beloved Amelia. I was at our weekly prayer group, kneeling down during the last decade of the rosary, I heard a soft , gentle voice say to me, it is time. I immediately knew it was Our Lady and she meant its baby time.... So then I waited, we prayed a lot and we waited, then on the feast of the holy family at 5 am the test said positive. Fast forward to many months of sickness , trips to the ER for IV bags and then in September of 2014 she arrived, two weeks late but who cares right, she was here and let me say, oh so perfect...
Now let's fast forward once again. We had Amelia, we moved to another new house, we felt really good. If God wanted to give more kids we were open but listen we didn't think we would get this one so we weren't about to start making demands... Then one sunny day last March I was reading while Amelia napped, suddenly the page in front of me disappeared, all I could see was a beautiful, chubby, dark haired baby boy and more intensely I could smell him. I knew this was my son, I then heard a strong male voice say, this is my son Samuel whom I am giving to you. Just like that it was over, he was gone and I wept. I cried so hard I could not breath. I knew that baby, he was mine and I wanted him here, now..... Again I waited and prayed , on the feast of Saint Joseph two weeks later, the test said positive ...once again the sickness came, IV therapy at home , months of feeling horrible, replying on friends and family to care for Amelia and myself. I begged God to help me, of course being the good God and Divine Physician He sent me a wonderful woman who for the next several months would see me once a week for acupressure and massage therapy. Then on December 1st, again two weeks late, we welcomed Samuel William into the world and perfection grew.
Some thoughts...
I fully understand that some of you may be saying,, Shannon did that really happen to you, are you just hearing things or hearing the things you want to hear? My true and honest response is, yes, those things happened, I know it to be true and look I have the kids to prove it! You my friends do not have to believe me, you can take it up with the Big Man yourself, but I know in my heart heaven spoke to me about these babies... Now will I get a Divine pregnancy test every time we are expecting, I honestly don't know. I can hope because selfishly it is kind of amazing but maybe God won't plan that going forward.
I feel the urge to write this ,to share ,not because I want to brag or throw around cool interactions with Our Creator but because I pray that if you are reading this and you are struggling to give up control and fully trust God, that this story of our life can help you let go. Let go of the power struggle bc God isn't going to compete with you. He loves you and has given you free will to keep pushing your wants, you won't be happy and neither will He but He won't stop you. I am unable to fully express the peace we have felt surrendering to His will and the graces and blessings He has given us , well they are more than I could have ever dreamed. I beg you, offer Him your pain, your love, your desires, make a consecration to Our Lady and give up the fight, fall back and let the Divine wave carry you away.
